One year out of the closet update

One year ago I left my husband and came out as a lesbian. For some people it was a complete shock, others I told and their only reaction was well duh! I struggled with deep feelings of loss and self loathing for the way I left him, for my constant wavering on whether or not I did the right thing for a really long time.

Battling the feelings that you’re back in puberty apparently is common in newly out people. I had no idea that I could feel that intense of a feeling toward someone. Honestly, I thought I was broken, that there was something wrong with me. That or I was asexual with zero interest in sex. Omg that was not the case.

Now, I’m settled in a very strong relationship. My girlfriend and I took it very slow and as a result, we have been able to grow together instead of getting too deep too fast. My finances are back to the way they should be after years of dealing with him. Life is good.